it’s ok to not be sure about your sexuality/gender ok guys? no matter how old you are. even if you’re in a relationship. even if you told everyone one thing. it’s really ok to not be sure because you’re growing and learning more about yourself ♬(ノ゜∇゜)ノ♩
It was me, my mother, and my hair.
We are in the kitchen puzzle pieced in between the ironing board, the phone, and our small wooden kitchen tables that hold up our homemade kente cloth place mats.
I sit in a folding chair. My mother grips the pink plastic wide toothed comb. Her dreadlocks hang and sway to the rhythm of her exhaustion. She approaches my chair agitated with comb in hand.
plunges her weapon into my scalp. Drags downwards. Rips through weeds and locks. And when you think my mother and the comb have finally been obstructed, defeated, they make a way out of no way.
I wince and cringe, as she whispers sorrys I swear she doesn’t mean. After her and the comb have cycled around my crown I stand against my kitchen wall. Then my mother starts weaving. Marionetting my curls; they bob and weave amongst one another. By the time my mother finishes braiding, she is standing on the other side of the kitchen with my hair in her hands. I still stand comfortably at the wall opposite her, and my hair sways between her and I as if we are preparing to jump rope.